Well, it's the 21st again. That means that were officially another month closer to Clarissa. As of today we have officially waited 10 months and we're starting on month 11.
It seems like I go through periods where I'm OK with the waiting and then I'll have a month or so that is really hard and I think I can't possibly wait for another minute. I've been OK for this past month. We've been busy getting the kids back to school and there have been other things going on, so I've been able to put it in the back of my mind for the most part.
But I don't know, today it's been on my mind a LOT. Sunday's are sometimes hard because it seems like at church every single person I see has a new baby and I'm so ridiculously baby hungry! Today was one of those days. I see everyone with their babies and it gets me wondering what it's going to be like when Clarissa gets here, what she'll look like, what her personality will be like...I can sometimes drive myself crazy thinking too hard about it.
And then I let myself look at the Korean adoption message board and that's always a bad idea! I'm so happy for all those families with their new babies, but I secretly want to gather all those babies up and take them home with ME. (don't worry, I'm not going to go on a baby snatching rampage!)
So anyway, here we are. One month closer. That's a good thing, right?! I need to focus on how much time we've got behind us and not so much on how much time is still ahead. We've come a long way and we really are getting closer. Sometimes I feel like this past year has gone by faster than I thought it would and sometimes I feel like I'm watching the clock and slowly counting down every second. I've never been a patient person and waiting for my babies to get here has always been hard for me. It was hard enough when it was only 9 months with the last two! Now 9 months is sounding pretty good to me!
So there you have it, my monthly whine about how much I hate waiting! I got it out and now I can hopefully get through another month before I have to publicly whine about it again. I'll see you all back here for another round on October 21st. :)