Sunday, September 21, 2008

We're getting closer!

Well, it's the 21st again. That means that were officially another month closer to Clarissa. As of today we have officially waited 10 months and we're starting on month 11.

It seems like I go through periods where I'm OK with the waiting and then I'll have a month or so that is really hard and I think I can't possibly wait for another minute. I've been OK for this past month. We've been busy getting the kids back to school and there have been other things going on, so I've been able to put it in the back of my mind for the most part.

But I don't know, today it's been on my mind a LOT. Sunday's are sometimes hard because it seems like at church every single person I see has a new baby and I'm so ridiculously baby hungry! Today was one of those days. I see everyone with their babies and it gets me wondering what it's going to be like when Clarissa gets here, what she'll look like, what her personality will be like...I can sometimes drive myself crazy thinking too hard about it.

And then I let myself look at the Korean adoption message board and that's always a bad idea! I'm so happy for all those families with their new babies, but I secretly want to gather all those babies up and take them home with ME. (don't worry, I'm not going to go on a baby snatching rampage!)

So anyway, here we are. One month closer. That's a good thing, right?! I need to focus on how much time we've got behind us and not so much on how much time is still ahead. We've come a long way and we really are getting closer. Sometimes I feel like this past year has gone by faster than I thought it would and sometimes I feel like I'm watching the clock and slowly counting down every second. I've never been a patient person and waiting for my babies to get here has always been hard for me. It was hard enough when it was only 9 months with the last two! Now 9 months is sounding pretty good to me!

So there you have it, my monthly whine about how much I hate waiting! I got it out and now I can hopefully get through another month before I have to publicly whine about it again. I'll see you all back here for another round on October 21st. :)


J said...

I can hardly wait to see your little girl..I can't even imagine what its like for! I look forward to your next monthly Have a great day!

Mama E said...

What kind of time frame did your agency give you?? We were told it was about 12 months from HSTK until referral. I have a feeling it might be longer!

Wendy said...

We were told to expect the wait to be about 18 months. The shortest wait I've seen through our agency that wasn't a waiting child was 15 months and the longest I've seen is 24 months. Most of them seem to be pretty close to 18 months though.

I'm finding that the wait with our agency is longer than a lot of the other agencies I've seen but I don't know why. I think our agency's fees are a little cheaper than a lot of others though. Not that that makes the wait any easier!

We didn't have a choice of agencies because WACAP is the only adoption agency in the country (that I've ever found, anyway) that will place a healthy referral in Idaho, so we didn't have much choice in the matter (although I'm extremely happy with WACAP aside from the longer wait).

I'm totally jealous of your 12 month wait! We'd almost be there now!