It's Monday again and I'm making another blog post about how I hope this will be the week. I'm feeling a bit of deja vu. :)
So there was no referral last week. Maybe this week? Who knows. Sometimes I start to feel like it's never going to happen.
Here's the silly thing I'm stressing over lately. This is dumb, but it's my blog, so I get to blog about dumb things. :) The longer this referral takes, the longer it's going to be before we actually get her home. If we don't get a referral until later in June and if it ends up taking four months to get her home, which is entirely possible, it's possible that she wouldn't be home in time for Halloween.
Last Halloween I found the CUTEST ladybug costume in the history of ladybug costumes. It was so cute that I absolutely had to buy it. It's one of the very first things I bought for Clarissa. It's been sitting in her closet for a long time and every time I look at it I can't wait until Halloween when she's home and she can wear it. I've thought about her in that Halloween costume a million times. It's one of those mental milestones I've built up in my head. Whenever the wait gets hard and I think I can't take it anymore, I remind myself that at least she'll be home for Halloween and I've got a cute costume waiting for her.
So lately everytime I think about how long the wait is and I count 3-4 months ahead to when she might be home, I realize that we're inching closer and closer to Halloween. It's so silly, but I'm going to be completely crushed if she's not home to wear her Halloween costume.
Of all the things to worry about, that one is pretty lame, I realize, but there you go. Clarissa needs to be home in time for Halloween.
I still think the chances that she'll be home in time to wear her Halloween costume are good, but I'll feel much better about our chances if we could just get the referral already!! May is flying by, we're getting so close to June. It has to happen soon, right? How much longer can this really go on?? I guess we all just have to wait and find out.