I was really really down last night. There's been a bunch of things going on in my head lately and I've just been really discouraged. Thanks to a lot of prayer and a husband who will go across town to get me my favorite cheesecake, I'm feeling much better today.
I decided to stop focusing so much on the family member that isn't here yet and spend the weekend enjoying the ones I've already got. So last night we had a campout in the basement and today we took the kids to see the movie Up.
Ok seriously, if you haven't seen the movie Up, you must go see it right this very minute! I generally don't get super excited about Disney cartoon movies. I don't mind seeing them with the kids because it's always fun to take them to a movie and they love it, but it's not something I usually jump up and down with excitement about. But today I wanted to do something that would be fun for the kids and something we could do as a family, so we headed off to the movies.
I expected it to be a cute, lighthearted movie like every other movie we take our kids to, so I was totally surprised when it wasn't what I thought it would be. It is super cute and funny, but it's also really sweet and sad in parts. I started crying in the first 20 minutes of the movie! It's a movie that kids will enjoy because it's funny and it's a movie that parents will enjoy because it's incredibly sweet and there's a deeper lesson to take from it. I'm looking forward to it coming out on DVD because I want to see it again!
I kind of needed a good cry today anyway, so a dark movie theater was a good place for it. :)
I'm spending the rest of the day working on some projects for church and doing some more family bonding. I'm so grateful for my family and for my sweet kids who make me smile. My heart continues to hurt that we're still missing someone, but I'm extremely grateful for two wonderful kids who are already here. I've had to really put this adoption in God's hands and remind myself that He knows what He's doing and will send Clarissa to our family when the time is right. In the meantime there's no point in having a pity party. I'm just going to try harder to enjoy my family and let the adoption work itself out when the time is right.
So there's my much happier update. One way or another I'll get through the rest of this adoption wait and I'll come out stronger in the end.