Monday, July 20, 2009

Good Morning, Clarissa

It's about 9:30am in Seoul right now. Somewhere on the other side of the world our daughter is beginning her day.

I wonder what she's doing right now. Is she eating breakfast? Taking a bath? Playing with toys? Maybe she sleeps late and she's still asleep. Maybe she's been up for hours and and she's out running errands with her foster mom. What's she wearing today? I wonder if there is a cute bow in her hair.

I wonder if she's laughing. I wonder if someone is making her smile. I wonder if she's being snuggled and kissed and I wonder if someone is singing her songs.

It's a strange feeling having a daughter that you've never met. I've stared at her photos for hours. I've memorized her face. I wonder how much she'll change by the time we meet her.

I wonder if she'll happily let us hold her when we see her for the first time or if we'll just be scary strangers to her. It's hard to think that as much as we love her and as much as we're impatiently waiting for her, she's not feeling the same about us. She has no idea that her life is going to be turned upside down in a few short months. In all my excitement I feel a little sad about what we're about to put her through and the adjustments she's going to have to make.

Adoption is a huge roller coaster of emotions, but through it all I have a peace in my heart that for whatever reason, this is the path our lives were meant to take. I know that God has a plan for us, and I know that this is how it's supposed to be. I feel incredibly blessed that we've been able to take this journey. When I look at her photo I smile. Her sweet face makes my heart happy.

So good morning, Clarissa. I'm thinking about you today and I hope that this new day brings you joy.


Jill said...

This is not only God's plan for your life, but this has been God's plan for Clarissa's life, too. What an amazing gift to you both!

Shannon @ Lifelong Impressions said...

Hi from BBC. The cute pic comment got me to click. lol It is a cute header! Congrats on how your adoption process is going!

Jeni said...

I was in Toyko yesterday at the airport and saw a flight to Korea and thought of you! Pretty soon you will be making that trip also!