Monday

I decided to get in a quick blog post while Clarissa is taking a nap. I'm kind of in a funk today and in the mood to write, although I guess I don't have anything specific to write about.

I'm in my annual holiday funk. It's the time of the year when we start figuring out our plans for Thanksgiving and Christmas and I have my annual meltdown about family issues. My family situation is a little complicated and while I've learned to deal with it most of the year, the beginning of the holiday season always gets me down a bit. I get incredibly homesick for a home and a past that isn't there anymore and it's hard. I miss my dad a lot around the holidays and trying to figure out what we're going to do for Thanksgiving is always a reminder that my family is much different than it used to be. So I mope around about it for a week, have a good cry and then put myself back together and move on until next year when I repeat the same thing all over again, even though I swear to myself that I'm not going to.

So that's where I am today. It's cold and dark outside and I'm feeling a little cold and dark inside. I've been mopey today. I tried to work on a few projects earlier but my heart isn't really in it today. Fortunately I have Clarissa around during the day to snuggle with and make me smile, which always helps. She's been my little buddy today.

The other good thing about today is that a friend brought me a pie as a thank you for letting her borrow my camera and I haven't been able to stay out of it all day. Chocolate pie will make anything feel better. :)

Tomorrow is Josh's school program where he is singing a solo and I'm really looking forward to that. He's really excited about it.

On Thursday I have a new friend coming over who is an adult Korean adoptee! We were introduced by the head of a local Korean organization and we were amused to find out that we've met before. She used to be a dental hygenist at my dentists office! Anyway, we've been e-mailing back and forth about our love of all things Korean and I'm looking forward to getting together with her and her cute kids.

So good things are coming up this week that will pull me out of my funk. I'll have my little pity party and then I'll shake it off, stop looking back and keep moving forward. Better days are ahead. :)