Tuesday, June 7, 2011

The scale

The quest for a better me continues. I decided that the comments from my previous post were right. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself. I'm continuing on with my better me project, but I'm taking it slower for now so I don't overwhelm myself with making a million goals that I don't have the time to accomplish right now.

My latest quest is something I've been avoiding but decided it was time to do. I joined Weight Watchers. *Sigh* In my mind I'm still a super tall and super skinny 16 year old. Unfortunately the mirror and and the scale keep reminding me otherwise.

I'm an emotional eater. When I'm stressed out I eat. When I stepped on the scale this week I kind of wanted to cry. Usually when I want to cry I eat, but not this time! On my quest to be a better me I decided not to accept the number on the scale and I'm doing something about it. I don't have a ton of weight to lose but enough that I need to do something about it before it's even more out of control than it already is.

So that brings me to Weight Watchers. I did it years ago after Matthew was born to lose the baby weight and it worked really well for me. I don't mind counting the points and I do feel like it's a healthy and realistic way to lose weight. Weight Watchers has an iPad app and I'm pretty attached to my iPad so that makes it easier. Whatever it is, if it has an iPad app, I'm totally in, lol.

Going on a diet is like going back to the gym. The first few weeks are really hard and you have to sort of force yourself but then once it becomes a habit it's not so bad. I have to keep reminding myself of that. I just have to get past the first few weeks.

So that's where I'm at right now. I'm counting points and trying to ignore my scale for the time being. I decided not to make any weight loss goals or obsess over the number on the scale. It's all about becoming a better me for the long run. There's no deadline and no goal. The goal is to just move forward and do better than I was doing yesterday. If as a result I become healthier and happier and my pants fit better, then good for me. :) I'll keep you posted!

1 comment:

Mother Fungus said...

So funny that I came across your blog. We are all trying to be better, just love who you are now while trying sister:) since you have adopted children you may like my blog...google The Big Hair Project you will see it...happy blogging.
Heather Lucky Lee, Mother of one:)