Day 19

I don't have anything exciting to talk about today so I'm going back to using a blogher writing prompt, which is "describe the happiest moment of your life".

That's a tough one because I honestly don't think I have one happiest moment. There are several events that pop into my head, like my wedding day, the birth of my children, our trip to Korea to get Clarissa, etc. It would be hard for me to say that one of those events was more happy than the others because they were all pretty amazing events in my life.

In general, my happiest moments are those spent with my family. Every now and then we'll be doing something together, like a family vacation or a holiday or even a fun movie night and I'll think to myself "this is a PERFECT moment". One of those moments that you just stop and take a mental picture of so that you will remember it forever.

A few years before we adopted Clarissa we went to Disney World with the boys. That was an absolutely perfect week. I remember stopping several times and looking around at my kids having so much fun and thinking that that was the most perfect week of my life. We still talk about that trip. I remember sitting on top of a mountain in Korea at night listening to a Korean music festival thinking that that was another one of life's perfect moments. I've been blessed with many happy moments in my life. To choose one as the happiest would be impossible.

I'm grateful for those happy moments because the memory of them gets me through moments that aren't so happy. This year has been incredibly difficult for me for some reason. I honestly don't even know why exactly, nothing specific has changed in my life, I've just been struggling for the past several months. In fact, I was just reading back on my blog earlier today and it really struck me how much happier and more fun my posts used to be. I can tell that things have changed a bit this year. Sometimes I just get stuck in my head and it takes a new hobby or a vacation or some sort of change to pull me out of it. I just haven't managed to find the right thing to pull me out of it this time. I will though, I'm not worried.

Shawn and I went out for ice cream this evening and we were talking about taking a big family vacation next summer. We haven't taken a vacation for a while because vacationing with a toddler isn't really our favorite thing to do, especially one who is a terrible sleeper and doesn't sleep well away from home, but I think by next summer Clarissa will be old enough for vacations to be enjoyable again. We're thinking of driving up to Northern Idaho and into Canada. We really don't live that far away from Canada but neither of us have ever been. I think having a vacation to look forward to might be the thing to help pull me out of my rut. We need some time away. I told Shawn that I want next year to be our year of adventures. Before Clarissa came home we used to take a lot of day trips and do lots of fun things and we've quit doing that. This year has been my year of self reflection. Next year I'm shaking it off and going on vacation. I've got a lot more perfect moments to make. :)