I had kind of a rough weekend. My anxiety was back, the heart palpitations were back, and our family had some sort of unfortunate stomach thing going on. I just felt kind of yucky all weekend. Even the treadmill was harder. I forced myself to push through 35 minutes on Saturday and Sunday and it just about killed me both days.
Because I refuse to let my anxiety control me, I got up on Saturday, pushed through the treadmill and thn took the boys to Diary of a Wimpy Kid. They have both loved those books for years and we all get super excited when a new movie comes out. I appreciate kid appropriate movies that aren't too babyish for bigger kids but not to adult for pre-teens. It seems like there just aren't enough movies like that these days. So we go see all the Wimpy Kid movies as soon as they hit theaters, just me and the boys. It has become a fun tradition.
Yesterday we skipped church because the kids had a weird stomach thing and mostly just sat around the house all day. I cheated on my diet because my stomach felt growly and hungry all day and it felt good to eat. I rarely cheat on my diet. I have done awesome staying in my calorie range. Even when we had birthday cake in the house last week I managed to eat it and not go over my allotted calories. But yesterday I just wasn't feeling it. I forced myself to do the treadmill in the morning and that was all the willpower I had in me.
But then I woke up this morning with a different attitiude. I feel a bit better today. I did 45 minutes on the treadmill and even managed to throw a little bit longer run in there than I usually do. I have to keep reminding myself that ups and downs are normal and not to give up when I have a few hard days. It's easy to tell myself that when I'm feeling good, but harder when I'm feeling crappy and it seems like I'm going to feel that way forever.
So I'm back on track and pushing forward. This is Josh's last week home before school starts, so we need to do a little back to school shopping for him and then Friday we're hosting a Back to School Barbeque with some friends. The cabin trip that we've been rescheduling all summer finally got canceled for good, so we turned it into a back to school party instead. Between the forest fires near the cabin and the fact that the family that owns the cabin is sitting by the phone waiting for their birth mother to go into labor, we figured this wasn't the best time for a cabin weekend!
So I'm excited to have those things coming up. Once Josh goes back to school we have another couple of weeks and then Clarissa starts preschool. She's been asking me when preschool starts all summer, so I'm anxious for that to begin! The teacher she was supposed to have just had surgery and can't teach after all, so she has the same teacher she had last year, and we absolutely loved her, so we're looking forward to that.
Today I'm going to try a new nail technique that I've seen and love but have never been able to master. Marble nails. I will come back later with pictures if I can pull it off!