I mentioned the other day that I'm struggling with the diet and exercise these days. It's just been an off week for some reason. I was really busy so it threw off my exercise schedule, I haven't felt the greatest and then I just couldn't stick with the diet. I all of a sudden got really sick of it and just needed a break.
My anxiety is also back this week for some reason, along with my heart palpitations. I do really great for a while and then it just hits me out of nowhere and really throws me off. I wish I could figure out what makes it show up and what makes it go away again but I've spent the past year trying to figure it out and I've long since given up. I just deal with it when it happens and hope it goes away soon. It always passes eventually. At least when it gets bad now I've learned to tell myself that it has come and gone before and it will go away again. Thank you six months of therapy. :)
So anyway, I'm not exactly at the top of my game these days. I've just hit a temporary low point. Th bike ride I took the other day helped a lot to re-motivate me and I'm going to get back on track. Seeing how far I've come in my fitness journey was really encouraging. I can't give up now, I've worked too hard and come to far.
So while the heart palpitations and anxiety have thrown me off a bit, I'm going to get back to work tomorrow. I went grocery shopping yesterday and filled my kitchen back up with foods that make it easy to stick to my diet and I'm going to get back on board. I can do this, I just have to keep pushing myself to keep going when I hit a rough patch. I go through periods where I feel super motivated and dieting is easy and I love the exercise and then sometimes I hit a patch where I just can't find the motivation.
I've learned to be gentle with myself. If I need a day off, I take a day off and don't beat myself up over it. It's OK to have an off day. But when my off day becomes an off week, it's time to kick myself in the behind and get back to work.
I find that blogging is my best motivator. It's one thing to tell myself that I'm going to try harder, but saying it publicly holds me accountable to someone besides myself. Somtimes putting it all out there is the kick in the butt I need to get moving.
So tomorrow I vow to get moving. I don't have a very busy week this week, so I shouldn't have a hard time sticking to my exercise schedule and my kitchen is full of diet friendly foods. There's no reason I can't kick myself into gear and get this done, right?
I will come back tomorrow and report my progress. If I haven't exercised and my diet journal isn't pretty, someone come over and smack me, OK? :)