Wednesday, May 29, 2013


I'm posting this slightly high on pain medication, so if none of this makes sense, you'll have to forgive me, lol.

I just wanted to update on how things are going. And things are going OK but not that great. My mouth is getting a little better every day but it still hurts and I'm getting tired of it hurting. Most of the day I do pretty good but it seems like around four in the afternoon is starts to throb really bad and ibuprofen just isn't cutting it. I've been really careful with the heavier pain medication, only using it when nothing else works, but it seems like every evening I end up giving in and taking one. It makes me sleepy and foggy and slightly goofy and I hate that, but I prefer it to the pain, so I deal with it.

It's definitely getting better, just not as quickly as I hoped it would. I'm tired of being in pain and I'm tired of not being able to eat normally. I can eat most things but I have to be careful, I can't eat anything with seeds that can get caught in my teeth or anything that might poke the area with the stitches. So I stick mostly to soft food and try to eat on one side of my mouth.

I'll survive, it's just getting annoying.

Not much else is going on around here. This is Josh's last week of school so he's got finals and projects that need to be finished up. Next week is Matthew's last week of school so he has parties and field day and other things coming up. Then we're officially onto summer vacation and our schedule is packed this summer! Matthew has a week long soccer day camp and then scout day camp, Josh will be at scout camp for a week and he also has yearbook camp, both of the boys are going to Utah with my mom for a few days in July, I have my class reunion in July so we're taking a week long trip to my home down, we have our yearly cabin trip with friends that I'm looking forward to and a few other assorted activities that we're trying to somehow cram in there. Our calendar is packed full this summer.

In the midst of all that I'm going to try to resume my bike rides. My exercise plan crashed and burned the past few months and sadly I have gained back some of the weight I lost. I'm struggling to get back on track, but hopefully as soon as my mouth gets better and the kids are done with school I can get moving on it again. Josh decided that he wanted to do couch to 5k and start running and he loves it. He's been a good motivator to get me started back up with running. I really loved it while I was doing it, I'm kicking myself for quitting over the winter. I would love to get back on track and run a 5k with Shawn and Josh. Running is so much fun.

So there is my rambling, high on pain medication update. Maybe none of that made sense. I really shouldn't blog on drugs, lol. Hopefully soon the mouth pain will get better and I can post with a clear head again. Let's hope! :)

Sunday, May 26, 2013

I huuuurt.

This whole dental surgery thing pretty much sucks. :( I felt like I was doing OK for the first couple of days but today I seriously want to cry. I'm taking prescription strength Ibuprofen and Norco and even with that I still hurt. I was reading a thing online about this surgery and it said that since they basically shave down your jaw bone in the procedure the recovery hurts like a broken jaw. Also, my gums are all cut up and swollen. It hurts to eat and since I'm drugged out most of the time and need to keep ice on my face I'm doing nothing but laying around all day, which gets old after a while. 

Like I said, I was basically OK enough for the first couple of days but being in pain gets old really fast. Now I'm just cranky. Shawn has been awesome about keeping the house running while I lay here in my drug induced haze and thankfully it's a long weekend and everyone will be home tomorrow so I can continue to recover for another day, but really, I'm totally over this mouth pain thing. 

I'm supposed to go in on Thursday to have the stitches removed but I'm dreading the thought of them poking around in there. I hope that it has recovered significantly by then because at the moment I can barely open my mouth wide enough to get a spoon in. I can't open it wide enough for them to pull stitches out of the back of my mouth. I should have begged for dissolvable stitches. 

So basically I'm not doing so great today! I've been sitting here for two days watching a marathon of Sabrina The Teenage Witch on Hulu (it's funnier in a drug induced haze, by the way) and eating mashed potatoes and popciscles. I'm pretty much over all of those things. 

So now I think I'm going to ice my face and then take a drug induced nap. A nap sounds good. 

Friday, May 24, 2013

You want to hear something weird?

Yesterday afternoon in my Halcion induced haze, it occurred to me the I should update my blog. When I got here I discovered that I already had. Twice. Huh. Yesterday was a weird day.

Day two is not shaping up to be much better. It feels like someone punched me in the jaw. I can't really open my mouth very wide and all I've manager to eat in the past 24 hours is mashed potatoes and gravy and mac and cheese.

Shawn took the kids to get haircuts yesterday and then took them to a party at Josh's school and I remember none of it. I didn't even know they were gone. I jut kept sleeping and waking up and going back to sleep. Thank goodness for Shawn.

He also decided to take today off work, which was nice of him. We're going to spend the day eating soft food and catching up on the season finales of our favorite shoes. If I can stay awake for it. :)

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Back from the periodontist

Ugh, that really wasn't fun at all, they tried to sedate me and  it only had moderate success. I was in and out for the whole procedure. Then the sedation kicked in pretty well right at the end of the appointment and now I'm super goofy and can't walk in a straight line. They also couldn't get my mouth numbed right, so there was a few false starts when they started drilling while I could still feel it. No good.

But I got it done, I got home and now I've gone back to bed. I'm laying here here feeling super yucky. My mouths still numb but its going to start hurting soon. I have heavy medication to combat it, but it will also make me loopy. So I'm a super funny right now. But not in a very good mood. For now I'm think I'm just going to go back to sleep. Shawn took the day off work to take care of me, so he's got it covered while I lay here and watch the world spin.

Dental surgery day

Well, the day arrived. I get to spend the day at the periodontist having gum surgery. I opted for sedation (because who wants to be alert when they're cutting your gums up?) so they started me off with some Valium, which I took last night, which making me super lethargic. I get more fun drugs when I get there that I'm hoping and praying will knock me out.

Ugh. I really don't want to do this. I wish dental work didn't freak me out so much. Wish me luck.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Pain :(

I seriously can't take the mouth pain anymore! I've been having all these tooth issues, one tooth has a temporary filling and needs a crown and the other tooth directly under it is getting dental surgery this Thursday.

So my teeth have hurt for almost a month. My mouth hurts every single day. Some days it's not so bad and some days I pop Tylenol like candy (well, OK, not like candy. I'm married to a pharmacist, I take medication dosing very seriously, lol).  I've dealt with it, I just suck it up and try not to let it drive me nuts. It's fine.

And then yesterday I woke up with a monster canker sore way back on the side of my tongue, right next to the teeth that hurt. UGHHHHH. Seriously? It hurts so bad I want to cry. I can't eat, it hurts to talk, it hurts to swallow and it wakes me up at night. Every time my tongue moves the canker sore hits the tooth that hurts.

Normally a canker sore would not put me over the edge but after all the rest of the mouth pain and all the tooth drama in the past month, I swear I'm about ready to lose it. I've got to get rid of this stupid canker sore by Thursday so that it's not there when I have my gums all cut up and stitches in my mouth right next to it, which, by the way, I am dreading so fiercely that you have no idea. STITCHES! In my MOUTH! I'm such a baby about this sort of thing.

So today I'm mostly cranky and trying super hard not to be cranky. I've been trying every single canker sore remedy I can come up with this evening and so far nothing is helping much. I keep putting numbing gel on it, but it only lasts for a few minutes. I'm taking Lysine, which is supposed to help, so we'll see what that does. I even put salt on because the Internet says it helps. Yikes.

But mostly, I'm just cranky and tired of my mouth hurting. I'm hoping my dental surgery comes with heavy narcotics because all this mouth pain can seriously bite me.

And that is the overly dramatic, cranky update on my life. Join me next time when I promise to suck it up and stop whining. We can all hope, right?! :)

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

The Luckiest

I  absolutely adore this song. I had it in my head yesterday and went looking for a video that included lyrics and I didn't find any that I liked, so I figured, what the heck, I'll make one myself. And here it is.

Enjoy. :)

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Happy Mothers Day!

I'm having a great Mothers Day! I woke up to breakfast in bed and some sweet gifts from Shawn and the kids. After church I said that all I wanted for my Mothers Day afternoon was a photo of me and the kids. My kids really do not enjoy photoshoots, especially Clarissa, but darn it, it's Mothers Day and I want a picture of me and the kids! :) So they were awesome sports even though it wasn't their favorite thing, and we got some cute ones. 

I love those three kids. I love being a mom and I love watching my kids learn and grow. I love helping shape their lives and being there for all their challenges and successes. They make me proud every single day.

Happy Mothers Day to all the moms out there!! :)

Sunday, May 5, 2013

I have a teenager!

Well, it's official. Josh turned 13 today and I am officially the parent of a teenager. I can not believe that kid is 13. He was a tiny baby just yesterday, wasn't he?!

Josh has been a unique kid ever since he was little. He spoke early and hasn't stopped speaking since, lol. His first word was hi and when he was still super little would go to the grocery store he would wave and say hi to everyone in the store. One of my favorite memories of Josh as a toddler was when he was three and we took a vacation to Oregon and took a trolley ride in Astoria. He so thoroughly charmed everyone on the trolley that by the end the conductor had him up there helping him drive and when we got off one family chased us down because they wanted to talk to him. That's Josh.

By the time he was three he had taught himself to read, by the time he was four or five he was writing stories and by the time he was around six he was making movies on the computer.  He's always been really creative and I love seeing what he comes up with. Our house is full of stories he has written, comics he has drawn, Lego creations he has made and movies he has created. There is a lot going on in his brain and I'm always excited to see what he comes up with next.

Josh is a good kid and I'm proud of him. He's sweet and kind and fun be around. I'm so glad that he is a part of our family. He makes us happy every day.

We had fun celebrating his birthday this weekend. Shawn took him and Matthew to Iron Man 3 yesterday and today we opened presents, had cake and ice cream and had an Amazing Race marathon. That's his favorite show and we were a few episodes behind so we got caught up and then watched the finale that was on tonight.

So it was a good weekend celebrating our new teenager. Holy cow, I have a teenager. How in the world did that happen?! :)

Happy birthday Josh! We sure love you!

Saturday, May 4, 2013

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone

Clarissa is obsessed with this song. She saw me watching it the other day and came over to see what it was and now we pretty much watch it over and over, 20 times a day.  It's been in my head all day, so now I'm putting it in your head. You're welcome. :)

Thursday, May 2, 2013


First of all, we went with Josh to the National Junior Honor Society induction this evening. It was really nice, I was super proud of Josh!

So Clarissa has officially hit the "why" stage. The boys both went through this when they were four so I don't know why it caught me by surprise when Clarissa started it, but I find it both amusing an exhausting. She pretty much follows me around all day saying Why are you doing that? Why are you eating that? Why are you wearing that? Why are you reading that? Why are you saying that? Why are you watching that? Why are you making that? Why are you cleaning that? Why are we going there? Why do I need to brush my teeth? Why do I need to eat my lunch? Why do I need to go to bed? Why? Why? WHY?!

When Josh was a baby and I was still an expert at parenting because I hadn't done much of it yet (come on, admit it, we were all that way at first), I swore that I was going to take the time to answer every one of my kids questions, every time, all the time, no matter what I was doing or no matter what they asked. Because parenting is super easy when you have one newborn who sleeps all the time and you have no idea how exhausting toddlers are, lol.

Then it turned out that Josh was a very early talker and he spoke well and he spoke often. He was crazy smart, even when he was super little and he was the king of the why stage. I was the perfect mom who answered all his questions, all the time, no matter what. For like, three months, lol. Then I bought him a book called "The Big Book of Why" and started hiding in the closet occasionally when the questions became so exhausting that my brain hurt. lol

Matthew was more laid back than Josh as a toddler and not as talkative (because Josh did all his talking for him) but we still went through the why stage. Four year olds are so interested in everything. It's like their brain suddenly realizes that there is a whole big world full of amazing things and they want to know how it all works, all at once.

But because of the big gap between Clarissa and the boys, I sometimes feel like I'm going though all this stages for the first time again. It's been a long time since I've gone through the why stage with a four year old. I forgot how funny and exhausting it is. I think I answered why a hundred times today. Daddy is going to the dentist to get his teeth cleaned. Because the doctor says it's time. Because he wants to make sure daddy's teeth are healthy. So they don't get holes in them. Because that would hurt. Because that's how mouths work. I'm drinking water. Because I'm thirsty. Because my body needs liquid. Because its good for you. Because that's how bodies work. I'm wearing red fingernail polish because I think it looks pretty. You have to eat lunch so your tummy doesn't get hungry. I'm reading this book because reading is fun. Why why why? Because because because.  At the end of the day I can't take any more why. I'm all why'd out today.

But as exhausting as it is, I find it incredibly entertaining at the same time because the world is so fascinating through the eyes of a toddler. Her brain is like a sponge and she just wants to soak in all the information that she can. It's fun to get to spend the day with her, teaching her and answering her questions. I'm going to miss her in a little more than a year when she starts Kindergarten and she's not my sidekick during the day. I like having my kids around and I miss them when they're gone.

So I'll keep answering the questions. Why? Because I'm a mom and that's just what we do. :)