Well, the day has arrived. It's Thanksgiving again. The culmination of my yearly funk, lol. We're not going out of town this year, we're not visiting family, heck, we're not even eating turkey.
I woke up this morning, prepared to suck it up and put a smile on my face whether I wanted to or not, but as I laid there for a few minutes and gave myself a Thanksgiving pep talk, I decided that I wasn't going to fake happy today. I'm going to choose to actually BE happy. I have too much to be thankful for not to be.
So I got up, I took a shower, I used my shower time to mentally list all my blessings and I'm ready to face this day with a real smile on my face.
I am grateful for my extended family, complicated as they may be sometimes.
I'm incredibly grateful for my three beautiful children and the most amazing husband anyone could ever ask for. I hit the jackpot with those four people.
Clarissa ran into my bedroom this morning, crawled into bed with me and asked me if we're going to catch a turkey today. She doesn't fully understand this holiday, lol. I love that kid.
Josh has been watching Heirs with me and I'm not sure if he likes the show or just likes spending the time with me, but we're having fun either way and I love it.
Matthew is my sunshine, always happy, always easy, always with a smile on his face and an exciting story to tell me. His enthusiasm for life is a blessing to our family.
I can hear Shawn downstairs right now vacuuming and I know that he's doing it because he knows Thanksgiving is hard for me and freshly vacuumed floors make me happy. That man will do absolutely anything to make me happy. Grateful doesn't even begin to describe how I feel about him. He's a saint as far as I'm concerned.
I'm grateful for my home, for my neighborhood and for this beautiful state, tucked in the safety of the mountains.
I'm grateful for my friends, who put up with me even if I don't like chick flicks and shoe shopping and need home decorating advice way too often. :)
I'm thankful for my blog readers who for some reason show up here and read my crazy jumbled thoughts. Knowing someone is reading is what keeps me writing and someday I'm going to be glad I wrote this all down.
I'm grateful for my church and for the peace it brings into my life. I would be a very different person without it.
I'm grateful for the 20 amazing Thanksgivings I got to share with my dad. I miss him today more than any day of the year. I'm grateful for eternal families. I know he's with us in spirit even if he can't take his place at the table and play a board game with me this afternoon.
I'm grateful for so many other things that I don't have time to list. It's hard to be in a Thanksgiving funk when I think of all the reasons I have to be happy.
So now I'm going to put my REAL smile on, go down stairs, hug my kids, kiss my sweet husband and celebrate my blessings. We're going to eat our ham, have our yearly Amazing Race marathon this afternoon and enjoy being a family.
Happy Thanksgiving to all of you. Thanks for sticking with me. :)