Monday, March 3, 2014

Ugh.

You know what stresses me out? Doctors. If you know me at all, this is not new information, lol.

I just finished making an appointment for Clarissa to see an allergist. Her nose is running all the time lately and we can't figure out what the deal is. Her regular doctor thinks it's either allergies (which I question, because we have her on daily allergy medicine to see if that's the issue and it's not helping at all) or he thinks it might be her adnoids.

They want to start with allergy testing, so I just set up an appointment to have her allergy tested. It's not a big deal, it just stresses me out because doctors are my anxiety trigger. If it's not an allergy issue we move on to an ENT to have her adnoids looked at, which means possible surgery, which really freaks me out.

Plus we have appointments for both Josh and Matthew to see the orthodontist and I'm almost positive that one or both of them is getting braces. My kids have complicated teeth. I feel like I'm going to have to sell a kidney to pay for dental work.

And speaking of dental work I still have one more crown that has to be done that I'm desperately tying to avoid because you know how I feel about that.

And also I have a weird mole. It needs to be looked at. I don't wanna.

And Matthew has a weird bump on his neck/collar bone area. We had it looked at in December and the doctor said that he thinks it's a cyst, no big deal, they usually go away on their own, but if it didn't go away he needed to see an ENT about it. It sort of went away. I breathed a sigh of relief. Now it appears to be back. Ugh. He may have to have it removed, which I was hoping to avoid because he's going to hate that and I don't want to him to have to go through that.

So I'm sitting here worst case scenerioing, because I have anxiety issues and that's what I do, and suddenly I'm seeing allergy testing, two kids in braces, a scary mole removal, adnoid surgery, cyst removal and the stupid crown I've been putting off that really needs to be done, all at the same time. Oh, and kind of crappy insurance that won't pay for a good portion of any of it.

Pleeease don't let this be the year of the medical procedures. We're all generally pretty healthy and medical issue free, so it's pretty rare that any of us go to the doctor, which is great for me, because,  you know, doctor anxiety, and now I feel like we all need to go at the same time for a whole crapload of expensive procedures. And when you have medical anxiety (and not awesome insurance) that sucks.

So...there. I have written my anxiety down and gotten it out of my head and now maybe I can go on with my day and stop stressing about it. Probably not, but I'm giving it a try. I'll keep you posted.

1 comment:

marisa_rd_a said...

Just wanted to give you a hug! I have severe health anxiety and know exactly what you are going through. My husband knows when it comes to anything medical with my kids he has to step up and take care of it because this mama can't handle it.
Good luck with all of it, you will get through it! Just don't google anything! I have banned myself from Dr. Google!

:)