The first half of the math class was actually really fun and I loved it. The second half got into algebra and I had to confront some math anxiety I've been harboring since high school. Josh had to tutor me through most of it and there were more than a few times I wanted to toss it all out the window and give up, but I'm happy to report that I have beaten the beast and for the first time in my life, I can actually do algebra! I'll probably never be great at it, but I can do it, I can pass a test on it, and I survived a semester of math. I'm actually ridiculously proud of myself. I know it was just a basic math class, but math is hard for me and I conquered it. I did the thing I didn't think I could do, and that was a confidence boost that I really needed.
So now I get a glorious week off and then we start up semester three. I'll be taking a religion class and an English class. English has always been my strong subject, so I'm not too worried about it. It's a lot of writing, and I do that for fun, so I should be good.
That semester ends in July and then we graduate from this program. I'm so glad that I chose to do this program. It was a really great way to ease back into college and I feel so much more prepared to start full time in the fall.
And speaking of that, I just spent the morning applying to college! The college I'm going to is the same one associated with this program, and I automatically get in if I complete the program but I still have to go through the application process so they can verify that I meet the requirements and formally accept me as a student. So it's more of a formality, but I spent the morning filling out application forms online. This is actually the same college I went to after I graduated from high school in the 90's, so it's actually sort of interesting to have it pull up my original information with my maiden name and kind of revisit some of that stuff. That year of college was kind of the year that things all started to go wrong back then, so it's actually a bit of a painful memory. Some of it was good, but most of it was a really ugly year for me that kind of kicked of a string of ugly years that followed it. Life after high school was bumpy for a bit.
But sometimes in life you get a do-over and I feel like this is mine. I never thought I'd be back in college, especially this college again. But here I am, and I'm determined to do it right this time. This is my do over and I'm grateful for it. I'm finally going to do what I should have done 20 years ago, and I'm really excited about it.